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True Happiness

by Jennifer White

 

Dreams are strange things; when your conscious mind shuts off, your thoughts are free to do as they please. Some dreams you can control, others you cannot. These are our nightmares, where our deepest fears can be faced while we lay safe in our beds. But what of life itself? It has been said that life itself, is but a dream. In time, you will realize that this is in fact true!

As you read these words, imagine the sound of a woman talking, with a sweet soft voice. You hear the soft voice in your head, gently caressing each and every word. This voice you hear is your own inner woman. Yes, I know that you are a man who sometimes likes to be a woman. Don't be frightened, child. I am not going to hurt you or embarrass you. I am going to help you.

Hear your inner voice again. Your inner female voice. Do you know why you have always had such an urge to feel female? It is because the world you live in is actually a dream! Your real life is a female life. Your inner female self is real. She lives just out of your reach. You are only her dream. All of your life, you have only been an aspect of her. You exist only as Her dream. Your inner self. Your true self. Your female self.

Those times you've seen a skirt hanging on a clothing rack, and you had a yearning to try it on... that was Her, coming through into your mind. Those times you felt the urge to wear a bra? Her again. She wanted to put on Her bra, and Her feelings spilled over into your mind. You are just a part of Her, one aspect in Her mind. It is not your fault that you have felt these things. You cannot help it. She is the one who felt them. Being just a part of Her, you could not help but to feel them as well.

I am going to help you get in touch with her, and bridge the gap from the dream world you life in, to true reality, where she exists. Do not be scared. Just carefully and calmly read on, and soon you will come to know her. It isn't hard. She is you. Or more correctly, you are a part of Her.

In order to reach Her, it is important that you concentrate. Go to a quiet place to read this, where there are no phones ringing, radios blaring, or noise from the street. A dark quiet room is best. There. Are you ready? Lets begin.

Start by getting in touch with the feel of your own breathing. Take a deep breath, then let it out. Relax. Take another breath, and let it out. Feel the air rush in, feel the air rush out. Concentrate on how it feels, as you let the air in, and out. In and out. In and out. Concentrate. In and out. In and out.

 

Now shift your attention. Concentrate on how your nipples feel. That's right, your nipples. Being a man, yours are tiny. But you can feel your shirt brushing against them. You can feel a tiny sensation each time you move, as the fabric of your shirt ever so lightly shifts over them. Concentrate on your nipples.

Your true female self has nipples too, but they are large. Your sit atop your flat chest. But your true female self has large full breasts heaving on Her chest. Imagine how it will feel when you become one with Her, and you can sense how they feel! It excites you and arouses you to think of having huge breasts on your own chest. Real boobs! Full and firm.

Now concentrate on how your nipples feel again. Take your hand, and ever so lightly, tease them. Make little circles on them with your fingertips. It feels good, doesn't it? You might even feel your nipples get a little hard, as you excite them. You feel them tingle, because you're not just exciting yourself, you're exciting Her.

She is touching her nipples too now. Concentrate on how you feel. She feels the same thing, only much more intensely, with her large female nipples. You are getting in touch with Her! Try to concentrate on how She feels. If you really try, you can sense Her feelings. You are starting to bridge the gap, and make contact with Her! Excellent. Keep rubbing your nipples. Keep concentrating on Her, and how She feels. You are starting to sense Her feelings. You are starting to let Her presence grow within you.

You may be scared at this point, but don't be. Remember, you are just a part of Her. It is very natural to get in touch with your True Self. There is no reason to be afraid! Continue on, and you can bridge the gap between Her and yourself!

Your little nipples are on your flat chest. You're feeling Her sensations, as she touches Hers, on Her large, full, firm breasts. Her breasts and Her entire chest are smooth, and free of hair. You hate it that hairs want to grow on your chest. Ignore them! Concentrate on your skin. Below those ugly hairs, your skin is soft and smooth, just like Hers. For every nerve ending She has, you have one too!

Move your hand in a bigger circle now. You can even take off your shirt, if you're in a safe place. As you move your hand on your chest, you can ignore any hairs you feel; concentrate on the feeling in the skin itself. Go with the grain of your hairs, and you'll feel them even less. Just concentrate on what you feel in your skin.

She is touching Herself in the same way as you are. She feels the same sensations on Her skin, as you do on yours. Her nerve endings match up with yours. You are feeling what She is feeling! Concentrate on what She feels. You are feeling Her skin, at the same time that you feel yours. You are touching Her chest, as well as yours. With all your mind, focus on how She feels as She touches Herself. It is Her thoughts that are guiding your hand. It may feel like you are moving it, but remember, you are just a part of Her. She is touching Herself, and you feel it!

In your mind, your true self image includes your flat tummy. Move your hands down to your belly button. Move on further down, until you reach your pubic region, where your hair starts. Just below the surface, in your true self, lies all of the wonderful female organs you wish you were born with. Fallopian tubes. Ovaries. A uterus. Try to sense that all of these are just below your hand! She is guiding your hand now, even though it feels like you are doing it. You are touching Her body. Her body is yours, because you are a part of Her. Just below your hand, the wondrous female things are yours.

As you hold your hand there, try and feel the aura of the what lies just below the surface. Let it register in your mind: you have ovaries. You have a uterus. You feel your female body. Yes, female. Your true self is female, and now you are learning to come into touch with your real self. Her hand is guiding yours now. Concentrate on what She feels, as you touch yourself. You are a part of Her.

Just down from your hand lies your vagina. All your life you have hated the fact that you were born with a penis. But you are only a dream, a part of Her. Your true self does have a pussy, a vagina, a slit through the soft mound between your legs. If you reach further down, your conscious mind knows it will find the unfortunate penis and balls there. But remember; they are not real! Your real self is your female self. The penis you might think you have down there is just an illusion, a dream.

Concentrate on what She feels down there. A tingling in Her clit. An inner welling of wetness forming. Those are your true feelings. Concentrate on what She feels. It is what your true self is feeling. Think to yourself how you are a woman. You are a woman. The more you concentrate on this fact, the more you can sense Her feelings and thoughts. They are your feelings and thoughts. You are a part of Her.

You are learning how to reach out to Her, and connect. You are letting Her guide your hand. She is in your mind. Your mind is just a part of Her. Now it is time to let yourself go, let down your guard, and let Her thoughts flow though you. You might feel scared now, you might feel afraid at the loss of control. But you must remember, you are the one living in a dream. She is the one who is real. You are just a part of Her. You have always been a part of Her. Let the wall come down, let Her thoughts flow through you now.

Her thoughts might be difficult to understand, or come to grips with. Don't worry; there is plenty of time. This is only your first time trying to reach Her! Over time, you will. And when you do, Her thoughts will flow through you, just as easily as the ones you are thinking now. Let Her thoughts into your mind! Concentrate on how your nipples feel! Breathe in and out, in and out. You are Her. Feel the aura of the female organs, just below your skin. You are Her. Breathe in and out, in and out. Concentrate on the tingle you feel between your legs. Feel her feelings.

Don't force your mind to go somewhere; let her steer it for you. After you read this sentence, close your eyes, concentrate on your breathing, and let Her thoughts flow through you!

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There. You have just taken your first step towards reaching your true self. You still feel that you are your self, but you have begun to touch your true inner being. A female being. When you go to sleep tonight, as you start to feel that tingle when you loose consciousness, remember that you are falling into Her world. You share the same dreams; you are the same being.

Practice what you have learned. In time, with enough concentration, you will begin to reach out and touch Her thoughts and feelings. Soon, they will flow through you, and you can experience more of what it is like to be Her. As you do so, and you get in touch with your true female self, you will be happier. You will feel the things you've been meant to feel your whole life.

If you work hard enough, you can tap into Her so much that you start to loose yourself. You no longer think of yourself as a male. You let go, and let Her thoughts into your mind. You think Her thoughts. You think as a woman. When you reach this enlightened state, you can find true happiness. Once you think of yourself as a woman, there will be no shame in wearing a dress. That is what a woman does. You are a woman. It is all right. You can feel happy, and there is no need for guilt.

Once you let Her guide your hand, you won't even notice anymore when She is in control. You can walk into a store, and buy yourself makeup. It is all right, you are a woman! Or go to a store, and treat yourself to a new set of lingerie. Or buy a bra. Anything you desire. You are a woman, and it is all right. There is no need to feel anything buy joy and happiness. You have a gift; the gift of knowing your true self. There is no need to hide your female self anymore! It is who you are.

Let Her guide you. Let Her decide which clothes for you to wear. If you dress up as a woman, it might help you feel closer to your true self. Try to dress up, then perform your exercises to let Her spirit enter you. Don't be afraid! Her feelings and desires are yours. There is no shame in that; it is who you are. Just let yourself be Her. You are a part of Her. Let Her rule your life, as it was mean to be.

  

  

  

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